Matt thinks that a vacation will do us some good - help us reconnect as a couple. So, he has planned a ten day exhibition through Costa Rica. I suppose a trip to an exotic country could help us find the chemistry again.
But, my mind still drifts to Jake. I wish I could combine the two -- take all the charm and girlish giddyness that I get from Jake and combine that with the ambition, strength and athleticism that Matt brings to our relationship.
Jake and I have been continuing to play these little text games where he will want to see me and I really want to take him up on it, yet I know how poisonous this all is for me. I have seen him a couple of times in the past month but still nothing like that night we played pool. Just thinking of that moment sends shivers down my arm.
Matt and I leave for Costa Rica four months. I should give him all of my attention and cooperation. I mean, he is trying.
