I'm suddenly getting all 'girly' and shit. I've spent the last two years making sure that the next time I found myself getting into a relationship that I would be stable, focused, know exactly what I want, and would not settle for games, flings, or anything else that needed rules or definitions. I am a grown woman - not some college coed named Tiffany who hasn't a clue about life and love. **sigh**
Jake and I are meeting for drinks tonight. I'm single. He's supposedly not commited in his situation. Timing seems perfect. But, then I keep thinking...perfect for what? What am I trying to accomplish? If it's a fling, that can be dangerous because I have an extremely long and heated history with Jake. No, it's much more than that. But it's certainly not...GASP....love. God no! It's more like an immense amount of mutual chemistry that has the potential for more. Yes, that has the technicality I'm looking for.
Why am I thinking like a chick? I'm getting all frilly froo-froo inside my head and I'm not thinking straight. I've been avoiding men for this specific reason.
Or maybe...
I was holding out for this specific man.
Thursday, December 8, 2011
I MUST See You
Jake 8:36 a.m.: oh, MUST you?
Tristyn 8:42 a.m.: yes
Jake 8:44 a.m.: and why is that?
Tristyn 8:50 a.m.: you're seriously not asking me that right?
Jake 8:52 a.m.: :)
Tristyn 8:58 a.m.: but, now the whole timing issue is reversed so it's prob not a good idea
Jake 9:06 a.m.: it's not serious
Tristyn 9:08 a.m.: what isn't? the girl?
Jake 9:09 a.m.: right
Tristyn 9:11 a.m.: says who? you? does she know that it's 'not serious'?
Tristyn 9:11 a.m.: from what i've heard, it is
Jake 9:18 a.m.: do you think i would have cornered you at the wedding if it was serious?
Tristyn 9:19 a.m.: yes. lol
Jake 9:20 a.m.: hmmm...
Tristyn 9:26 a.m.: don't do this. i've been steering clear of relationships for this very reason - the games
Jake 9:30 a.m.: no games. you know that we have always had a thing. being in a relationship with someone else was never an issue before
Tristyn 9:34 a.m.: not looking to just hook up and not looking for a boyfriend either. but just want to spend time with you and not have to share you with someone else or worry about someone seeing us together, ya know.
Jake 9:40 a.m.: like i said, it's not serious. if we were seen together, it's not like i'm cheating. there is no commitment between me and her
Tristyn 9:41 a.m.: ok
Jake 9:41 a.m.: so you wanna fuck?
Tristyn 9:43 a.m.: you're an ass
Jake 9:44 a.m.: lol
Tristyn 8:42 a.m.: yes
Jake 8:44 a.m.: and why is that?
Tristyn 8:50 a.m.: you're seriously not asking me that right?
Jake 8:52 a.m.: :)
Tristyn 8:58 a.m.: but, now the whole timing issue is reversed so it's prob not a good idea
Jake 9:06 a.m.: it's not serious
Tristyn 9:08 a.m.: what isn't? the girl?
Jake 9:09 a.m.: right
Tristyn 9:11 a.m.: says who? you? does she know that it's 'not serious'?
Tristyn 9:11 a.m.: from what i've heard, it is
Jake 9:18 a.m.: do you think i would have cornered you at the wedding if it was serious?
Tristyn 9:19 a.m.: yes. lol
Jake 9:20 a.m.: hmmm...
Tristyn 9:26 a.m.: don't do this. i've been steering clear of relationships for this very reason - the games
Jake 9:30 a.m.: no games. you know that we have always had a thing. being in a relationship with someone else was never an issue before
Tristyn 9:34 a.m.: not looking to just hook up and not looking for a boyfriend either. but just want to spend time with you and not have to share you with someone else or worry about someone seeing us together, ya know.
Jake 9:40 a.m.: like i said, it's not serious. if we were seen together, it's not like i'm cheating. there is no commitment between me and her
Tristyn 9:41 a.m.: ok
Jake 9:41 a.m.: so you wanna fuck?
Tristyn 9:43 a.m.: you're an ass
Jake 9:44 a.m.: lol
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