Before Matt, Jake and I had a 'thing'. I wouldn't necessarily call us a couple because we weren't. And I don't know if it was a friends-with-benefits situation either. I don't know what it really was, but the fact is...Jake is on 'the list'. I'm not saying that since I've had sex with him before it makes it okay to do it again, but at least I wouldn't be increasing my numbers, right?
Besides, Jake is totally harmless. We're just having fun texting teasing messages. We've had lunch together a few times. Nothing to blog about there. Just lunch. See. He's safe.
Geez. What in the fuck am I doing?
I love Matthew. But we are in a funk right now and have been for a long time. He doesn't look at me the same. I think he considers me a nuisance - that I'm somehow disrupting to his master life-plan. Sorry, Matt. I didn't mean to cramp you. I just don't know what you expect from me. No. Scratch that. I just don't know if I can give you what you expect from me.
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